Why is Trump so embarrassed about his Assets?

There have been a lot of allegations about how rich Trump is not.  Don’t get me wrong.  Trump is rich compared to you and I and 99% of the world.

But Trump claims to be worth $10 Billion.  Which turns out to be as suspect as claiming 10 inches.  He’s just super cagey about showing off the actual meat that makes up his $10 Billion.

He won’t show his tax returns which all modern Candidates do.  If you will recall, Romney was very reluctant too.  He managed to hold out until September, with reporters making huge hay over his reluctance.   I’m not sure how long Trump will hold.

But Trump’s reluctance, unlike Romney’s, is not centered on trying to avoid the perception of being one of the elite super rich.  No.  Trump is ALL ABOUT BEING RICH.  So why is he being shy?

Well, most pundits think it’s because he’s been exaggerating the inches cash and assets.  Most of these people still think he’s a Billionaire.  One source called him a Low Ball Billionaire.  Can you imagine?  Somehow being a billionaire comes with a status indicator.  What the Fuck?

Anyway.  Forbes thinks he’s got 4.5 Billion.  What I find mind boggling is that people seem to think this makes a difference.  $10 Billion vs 4.5 Billion.  Whaaat?  Are they kidding?  Do they have any concept of what a billion is?

But there are others who would lower him down to mere Millionaire Status, saying he’s not even a Billionaire.  In 2006 when Trump was claiming a mere $6 Billion, Timothy O’Brien claimed he was only worth between $150 million and $250 million.  Trump sued him and lost.  Now Trump claims $10 Billion.

Here’s the thing, Trump is selling assets to pay for this campaign.  He’s not particularly liquid in cash.  But that’s doesn’t mean he’s not a Billionaire.  Or just a super rich Millionaire.  He’s rich.  Very Rich.  Liquid Money is money that isn’t earning much or any money.  It would be a foolish Billionaire who was very liquid.

Trump is embarrassed about how rich he is.  Not because he’s too rich, like Romney was.  Because he’s not rich enough.  He’s been bragging about his size and now people want him to drop trou and he’s feeling all kinds of awkward about being found short.

Add into his natural inadequacy all the ways he manipulated those tax returns to minimize his taxable income and gains and he’s going to look VERY short of his boasts.  He thinks no one will understand that he’s really rich.

I bet he isn’t even thinking about how we will be pissed about his tax avoidance.  He’s worried that we will realize he’s not as Rich as He Claims to Be.  He thinks we be will be focused on how short it seems.

Which considering the length and breadth of his lies to date is an interesting insight into his psyche.  He’s an unrepentant and unembarrassed liar.  But he feels inadequate about money.

He wants to be seated near the Head of the Table by Bill Gates, but he’s afraid everyone will find out that maybe he’s not even IN the Billions Club, much less being anywhere close the head of the table.

He feels insecure about how he’s not rich enough.

It’s pathetic.  And disturbing that this is the sort of person people want to run this country. A man who’s house of cards will be brought down by a dick wealth measuring contest.

Donald Trump and the Mob

It sounds like the title to a bad Detective Story.  But there is a substantial connection between Donald Trump and the Mob.  

Trump worked with a guy, Felix Sater, who helped develop the Trump SoHo hotel and condominium in New York City. In 2000, Sater pled guilty to running a major mob funded investment scam.  He served no time because of a deal he made with the FBI.  Sater was also convicted for slashing a guys face with a broken bottle in 1993.  He’s a nice guy.

Allegations have been made that Trump worked with mob related operations in various building sites.  Its been said Trump Tower is a a monument to the Mob by Wayne Barrett .

But you don’t hear about it much.  No one is harping on it.  Perhaps because he has such a great clown show going on in front of the reporters, there is no need to dig to deep for something worth reporting.

You may consider it inevitable that he’s connected to the Mob because he’s a builder.  But put it in perspective – the man who claims to be right for the White House job is connected to organized crime.  We should try to avoid putting that sort of connection into the white house when we can see it ahead of time.

Baffling. Just Baffling.

I don’t get UK Politics.

I mean when Cameron resigned I was sort of shocked.  In a vague way I get that he was doing some kind of “noble thing” because he fucked up in large and terrible way.  I guess?  But I don’t REALLY get it.  But the UK people I follow on twitter seemed to just nod knowingly.  Maybe they think he’s idiot, but they don’t seem baffled by the act of resignation.

Then the resignations of the MP and Cabinet Members just came flooding in.  Now I’m befuddled.  Why are they all quitting just when they are most needed?

When your country is in crisis, you don’t do the honorable suicide thing.  You buckle on your adult panties and you get to work putting the place back in order.  You have large fights about the best way to do it, but you keep going, you negotiate and compromise and hammer out some solutions that neither side really likes but both sides find at least acceptable.

But you don’t politely bow out because you don’t agree with how things have gone so far.  What the ever living fuck is that about?  Grow the fuck up.  This isn’t the damn PTA.  You were elected to a position of government.  Do the damn job and stop prancing around writing noble and slightly martyred resignation letters.

Utterly ridiculous way to run a damn country.  Or in this case, not run a country.

I mean, these are the people KNOWN for being stubborn and sticking out the damn blitz.  One of their heroes, the Duke of Wellington is oft quoted for saying

“I made my campaigns using rope, and if a piece broke I tied a knot”

Tie a knot, Idiots.  Stop faffing about resigning and just get the place back in order, one way or another.

Churchill was famous for not giving up.  For facing down utter disaster and pulling his country through.  Churchill would have told them all –

“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.”

Continue, damn you!

From my vantage and at this distance all I see are a bunch of children in a crisis running home crying for Mummy to get them some tea because its been rough at the playground this week.

It seems to me that someone needs to have a Come to Jesus Meeting with these halfwits.  I wonder if the Queen is available? Maybe that could be her real role in the UK.  Scolding the Parliament into doing their damn jobs.

I am not always thrilled with my country, the US.  But I will say this, we aren’t plagued by the hypocrisy of Virtuous Quitters that seems to have decimated the UK Parliament.  I cannot imagine any of our Congress, many of whom have few if any redeeming qualities, quitting just when the country needed them most.  Much less the President.

Calling a General Election at such a time is just adding  Chaos to Crisis.  Ridiculous.

Neutrality is not enlightenment. It is a position only accessible to those for whom the stakes are very low, who want to feel superior to those who have no choice but to care.
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This is so very true.  There is a tendency among people who have very little to lose to say “Shush, You are being rude.  Just Shush. Be accepting and polite.”. But there are times when being polite is UTTERLY POINTLESS.

When people’s lives have been stripped mined they don’t have any need to be polite.  It will not save them.  Their best solution is to be LOUD AND ANGRY.  To be effectively calling out what is wrong.

Do not Shush the disenfranchised because it feels awkward and rude to you.  Ask yourself, why are they screaming?  Why are they making a fuss and being so rude and angry?  Why aren’t you angry?

Do you see the problem, but are just giving precedence over your current comfort and the need to fit into the social dynamic that is Polite Society?  Because that is a certainly a strategy that works well in at dinner party for the boss, but it’s not one that will change the course of history.  Think about it hard – Are you unconsciously prioritizing the need to smooth out the immediate discomfort of shoutiness over the absolute problem that caused it?

Or is their problem not a problem for you and so you just don’t want to know that anyone else is suffering?  Well, guess what.  They have no need to make you more comfortable in your easy life.  Their life isn’t going so well.  Too bad if you have to see it, hear it and face it.

Will the human race die from its own inanity?

I think its likely.

What I find most frustrating about that fact is that is entirely possible not to think like an idiot.  It’s a trainable skill to think clearly.

We spend a huge amount of money educating people and what we accomplish in 12 years is teaching them to read, possibly to write, and occasionally to be able to add up numbers.

We fail miserably at education.  Mostly because we think education is about learning facts rather than learning the skill of thinking intelligently.

If you spend anytime on the internet, you will see countless people make ridiculous points, that have no logic, and/or no basis in fact.  They never bother to run an idea through any kind of critical thinking, never bother to do the most minimal research on an idea.

We don’t have to live like this.  We don’t have to have people starving.  Dying of curable diseases.  Living without shelter, dying in violence.  We don’t have to strip the earth of all it’s resources and have our descendents die slowly in horrible circumstances because we were just too stupid to allow them the privilege of life.

But we do.  We do because we are stupid.

And the more people there are in any group, the stupider the group becomes.  And humans do tend to herd ourselves into groups, virtually as well as in real life.  And once we are in the group, all we hear is the echo chamber of our own ideas and so we don’t feel any compulsion to consider anything differently.

And all of it is within our power to do differently.  All of it.  It only requires thought.  And a desire for the greater good.  But even if you are just a selfish clod, you must recognize the benefit gained to yourself by the greater good.  Well, you recognize it when you use your brain to think critically.

So little hard thinking is done in this world.   And eventually it will kill us.

Watching for Omens

I’ve been following the UK Brexit Referendum.  I worry that it’s a sign of the coming times for the US.

A sign that the people who claim fear instead of compassion will change the direction that humanity has been crawling.  The direction of peace and a place for everyone.

A sign that the people who only want only Us and not Them will win in every country and the world will become more divided and violent.

A sign that humanity will never grow out of the kindergarten stage of recess name calling and poking and gratuitous violence.

A sign that the few will always direct the fear of the many to their own advantage the demise of a truly civilized civilization.

A sign that if they win, Trump will follow.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this.  We were going to grow out of it.  How did we end up here?

 

Who is to blame? The N.R.A.

There have been 136 mass shootings in the US so far this year.

After a gunman entered a school and killed 5 & 6 year old children, we did…. NOTHING.  No.  I’m wrong.  The NRA convinced the elected officials of this country to resist any increase in gun regulation.  So we did do something, we STOPPED any change from happening.

After San Bernadino, the NRA again convinced the morally challenged congress to avoid regulation on guns for terrorists.   You can’t bring hair gel on a plane, but according to the NRA, someone on a terrorist watch  list should not be deterred from buying a gun in U.S.  The NRA says we might deter someone who is accidentally on the watch list.  So… maybe a dozen people in a year might try to buy a weapon and be stopped erroneously.  THAT would be a FAR GREATER PROBLEM than hundreds of people dying from legally purchased weapons.   Because some people might be inconvenienced, so screw all the people who die or get wounded.

So let’s discuss why.

THE NATIONAL RIFLE ASSOCIATION is to blame.  Let’s not mince words.  I’m not even going to try and be nice about it.  It’s lost it’s original intention of being a group of like minded individuals promoting responsible gun ownership.  It’s become a political lobby that has lost all sense of morality.

The Gun Manufacturers are to blame.  They, and do not be naive and doubt this, are the real instigators of this problem. They merely use the NRA as their shill.  So when I say NRA – its important to remember – the NRA, despite being proud of its many individual members, is essentially a mask for the Gun Manufacturers.

Why use the mask?  Compare these two positions.  Large Corporation wants to make money and so wants to keep Congress from gun regulation.  VS Individual Citizens want to have the right to hunt and protect themselves.  Get it?

Gun Manufacturers cannot directly support the NRA’s PAC.  BUT they can support the NRA generally.  They can make sure those in charge of the NRA are… well funded.  Generally speaking that means buying “advertising”.  I imagine other exchanges of benefit happen for various executives, but I’m not going to spend time looking into it.  Based on the NRA’s general morality, I would frankly be shocked if that wasn’t happening.

The NRA then focuses itself in two areas:

  1. Recruitment through evangelizing it’s imperative to own a gun at any cost
  2. Using its membership dues and membership numbers to force its agenda on congress.

Why?  Well, suppose you want to sell guns – you don’t want people to have a hard time getting them, right?  All businesses lobby for their right to do business with their customer.  Except it’s not quite that straightforward.

The thing about guns is that in a normal life, people don’t want more than 1, maybe 2 if you have a rifle for hunting and a handgun for personal protection.  But see, that is not a good thing if you SELL guns.  It limits your potential market. The answer to this is to artificially inflate your market.

FIRST,  you must convince people that guns are about to be scarce.  How?  You create a terribly decisive controversy around them.  You make sure that every time 49 humans are killed in a nightclub, all of your customers get afraid that they won’t be able to buy another gun ever, and so they run out to a gun store and buy guns IMMEDIATELY.  They already have a gun, but they might never be able to get another one, and so it’s better to hoard now for the imagined future need.  That’s the way our monkey brains work.  Monkey brains don’t work on logic, they work on emotional fear of lack.  Marketers know this and will advise you wisely to create this fear to increase your sales.

SECOND: You turn guns into a hobby.  A collectible, like Beanie Babies. And so people like having multiple guns for no other purpose but having them is “fun”.  As a result of this mentality, the US has 101 privately owned guns per 100 people.   Innocent people are dying because a small group of people want to have the right to collect an unreasonable number of deadly weapons for fun.  And the NRA is there to convince both them and your congressman that they should have an unencumbered right to do it.  No matter how many people are killed because of it.

THIRD:  You make ownership of a gun an underdog pursuit. An excellent advantage to fighting  the apparently logical and ethical choice to regulate guns is that it creates the sense that a small group of people is being mistreated by the government.  You turn the idea of guns into an essential right and it becomes a battleground.

Then you create a narrative with this battle that makes people tie their identity to the gun ownership.  People don’t own guns, they are gun owners.  You see the distinction?  Now it feels like government is going after them personally, not their guns.   Now you have a tribe, a community, fans.  You’re just like Apple, but you know, with guns instead of tech.  Sure you did it with blood and death instead of pretty and useful tech, but the end result is the same.  A group of people who support you no matter what you do.

The NRA is the root of this problem.  We can all point to all the hate and paranoia and exclusion and mental illness.  Those things exist and they should not be ignored.  But the reality is that those societal factors would never have culminated in the death of 49 humans if the NRA had not been actively campaigning to protect the right of a few people to have a hobby. The NRA is the linchpin to this problem.  Without it, the gun manufacturers could not lobby a sufficient amount of sympathetic support.

They ARE a morally bankrupt group that has no qualms about the blood they feed off of to gain their advantage.  The NRA has caused the death of more than 1000 people in just mass shootings.  That doesn’t include accidental deaths, suicides and individual murders with legally obtained weapons.

Do not apologize for them.  They used to lobby for better gun regulation.  They used to have a moral center that was about responsible gun ownership.  But now they don’t do that.  Now they have taken this completely explicable turn toward fighting any kind of rational regulation.  And the explanation is that:

Gun Sales are improved by controversy.

The NRA killed 49 people this past weekend and so many many more before that.  They are as responsible as cigarette companies are over lung cancer.  Possibly more.

Let’s fix Congress

Congress is a bigger problem than the President.  We tend to ignore the problem that is Congress.  Congressional elections tend to get less turnout.  Most voters cannot name all of their congressman, including myself most days.

We are far less likely to know where are our congressional rep stands on any particular issue and merely project onto them the position of their party.

We don’t know how they vote, we don’t know if they are merely shills for various businesses, we don’t know if we have accrued any benefit in our region because of their efforts.

We tend to think of Congress as a whole entity, divided into two sides, fighting a constant civil war.  But we don’t think much about the individuals who are supposed to be there working for our area in particular.

Congress is supposed to the factory where we generate the legislation and budgets that make this country run properly.  Congress is the CENTER of how things are supposed to get done.  But generally we perceive them as a clown car driving in circles with various unknown clowns forcing their way in or out of the vehicle.

Congressional Representation RARELY represents the actual population of the region.  This is because of gerrymandering, low voter turnout, and PRIMARILY – the two party system.

This country has divided every situation into some dichotomy based on a two party system.  And it’s insanity.  People are voting for a party and not an individual and that creates a problem, since it is the individual who goes to congress and votes. 

We assume that if we agree with some of a party’s position, we must endorse all of it.  Indeed we have no choice but to do so, because there is only the two choices and we have been led to believe its a zero sum game.   So people who have always voted for a party are still voting for it even when the party is saying and doing things they don’t personally agree with – because they agree with other things that the party represents.

So I propose the following:

a.  EVERYONE HAS TO VOTE.  No exceptions – you can go and abstain, but you have to go.

b.  For the House  – Larger districts and multiple representatives from each district.  See this video for explanation.  If you make the districts larger, and have more representatives, this allows for people with a minority viewpoint to get some representation in Congress.

For Senate – Increase the number to 4 senators from each state.

c.  Multiple Parties.  We need to have more parties to allow a more nuanced representation of views.

d. Single Transferable Vote.  Again – look at the video.  But this allows for more parties and a more representational congress.  You can vote in order of preference rather than voting defensively.

e.  Gerrymandering.  Politicians, Parties, Lobbies, etal cannot have ANYTHING AT ALL to do with the design of districts.  Period.  Nothing.  It needs to stop.  Non partisan committees must do this.

f.  Money -We need to get rid of the Super PACs and at least further regulate regular PACs.  We need to stop corporations and Rich People from giving more to a political campaign indirectly than any  average person can.  Basically we need to isolate this election to the money that is given directly to the candidate.  Also the party or a some lobbying group or the boy scouts cannot directly advertise for candidates.

I think it’s fine for a group to advocate for a particular policy as long as they did not link that ad directly or indirectly to the candidate or party.  So if a group is all excited about bathroom binary genders, that is the only thing they can say.  “lets police the bathrooms for genital sameness from birth.”  They cannot say the candidate’s name, party or have any logo, image or symbol that would link that issue to the candidate.

g.  ALL donations must be publicly announced on the candidate / congressperson’s website.  The donations are currently a publicly available thing – but not often acknowledged publicly by the candidate.  It needs to be out there.  tumblr_o8fkkhfjoy1vnghdeo1_540

h.  Platforms – they need to published and discussed when they announce their candidacy.  Again – detailed policy must be expressed and at least two valid objections must be countered.

If they are up for RE-election, then their websites must contain both their voting history and their reasoning for the vote.

i.  Their fitness for the job must be declared.  No criminal backgrounds.  No tax problems.  No censures from any political body at any level of government.

Their experience must also be listed.  What is it that gives them the ability to sit in congress?

k.  Every election, the League of Women Voters publishes a wonderful summary of the voting options you have.  It is, sadly, not as well distributed as it needs to be.  I would propose that we need to make this sort of publication a REQUIREMENT and it needs to be delivered electronically or by paper to every person.

Today I didn’t commit suicide

There have been really terrible places and times in my life where that was a statement that ran through my head.  Times when it was a choice and I was aware of it as a decision.

When that statement was running in my mind, I recognized that my choice should have been an achievement, but mostly I was just aware of it as a fact.  I survived.  I wasn’t really sure how I felt about it.

There have been times recently when I think about suicide without actually intending it in any way. I think about how I would do it, what it would feel like. I’ve been told that is called suicide ideation.

That is a bizarre place to be.  When I step back and look at what I am doing, I realize – why am I thinking about this horrifying thing?  Something is really wrong in my brain.  And then I remember.  Depression.  Depression is wrong with my brain.

Depression is the most slippery of all the enemies I will ever have.  I have put a personality on my brain disfunction.  To recognize the disfunction as something OTHER than me.  Because that is what is so hard for me.  My brain seems to think and do all kinds of messed up things.  My brain – Me

But it’s not me.

It’s the bastard – Depression.

When I can step back and see that it’s this Other thing, I can watch the way my brain acts that feels foreign to who I am, then I can get a grip on the fact that it’s not me.  Its not who I am.  Depression is something outside of me, making my brain act weird.

The hard part is that the brain is the part of my body that holds Me.  So when it acts weird, it feels like I’m weird.  But then I’m letting the Depression define me.  When I don’t move, it’s easy to decide I’m lazy.  But that isn’t a characteristic of who I am.  It’s a characteristic of the Depression.  When I’m in charge – I move.

My point is – Depression is not who I am.  It will swirl around in my head, sweeping my thoughts in weird directions, so that I spend time planning a suicide I really have no current intention or interest in carrying out.  That is just one of the obvious things.  There are so very many weird things it makes me think and do.  But those things are not me.  They do not define me.  They define Depression.

And it just takes a small step back to watch it, to recognize it as an outsider in my brain – a fucking bastard whom I can imagine shutting into a closet.  I wish that imagining that would make it go away, but it’s not that simple.  What is helpful though is remembering to step back.  To realize – it’s not me.  It’s Depression.

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Let’s talk about how we use the word Love.

I watched a video that contained a segment that was intended to be encouraging.  In it were the words “Know you are loved.”

And I just wanted to scream.   She had no idea if the person watching this video was loved.  If she wanted to suggest that she loves them it’s worse.  Because she doesn’t, obviously.  She doesn’t even know them.

Love is not the word. It’s an emotion.  You don’t create it because you write or say it. You can express it through an action, but the action itself isn’t love either.  It’s just a method of expressing the emotional connection you feel to someone.  For example a hug isn’t love.  A hug is a hug, but you can use a hug to express your love for someone.  Just as you can use the word to express it.  But using either hugs or words doesn’t make actual love happen.

I do not feel loved because someone says “You are loved.” or “I love you.” unless there is actual reason to think that.

Do you know what constitutes reasons to believe that?  KNOWING ME.  There needs to be some context of a relationship for me to recognize that you have said something that is true.

If you don’t know me , saying you love me creates a sense of imbalance and incongruity in conversations.  It feels out of place, makes me question your integrity because it has no context.  I no longer can trust what you say because you just said something that was obviously untrue about one of the deepest and more cherished emotions humans hold.  The emotion of connectivity.

The person in the video had the best of intentions.  She truly wanted to reassure the watcher, but ultimately she is breaking the good she is trying to do by fracturing the trust with the most important thing we all experience.  Love.

Let’s stop demeaning love by using it as so much confetti to be thrown into conversations without context.  It’s not a call sign, it’s not a salute, it’s not a joke.  It’s the connective tissue of our relationships.  It deserves more respect.

I get the impression sometimes that people find it easier to say to acquaintances and strangers and rarely say it to the people they truly care about.  There is a reason for that.  Love is a huge thing.  It’s hard to say when you deeply mean it because it’s expands in quality when it uttered.  The more you mean it the more it becomes your source of fragility to rejection and loss.

You diminish real love when you toss it into conversations until it litters the world like cigarette butts at highway exits.  Let’s take a moment to consider who we really love and then take the hardest of steps and say it directly and personally to them.  Without it being the substitute for good bye, or the sign off on a text, or a thank you.  To give it the respect and power it fully deserves.  emotions-1034916_960_720