I’m always trying to make my life work better. Which is often an internal struggle against the stillness that my depression prefers.
So now I’m trying To Do apps on my phone. The one I’m currently using is called Todoist.
I like to do lists. I find writing out a list of things I have to do makes them less daunting.
When things I must do are just swimming in and out of my mind, they tend to get into log jams and I become stressed about how MUCH THERE IS TO DO! 😣
Usually when I sit down and make the list, it’s not as much as I felt it was. And it all suddenly becomes manageable. And I don’t have that feeling of did I forget to do something?
I like checklists for that reason to. I am very good at forgetting to do a thing even though it’s a thing I do all the time. At work, I need to have checklists or I will often forget a step.
But back to my new app. I’ve decided I want the app to have an alarm. Because I don’t pay enough attention to my phone to notice when I have notifications. I can literally go for days without looking at it. People get cranky with me. But if there was a noise to tell me to get me off my butt and do the thing it might help.
In this case I just put in my daily chore around the house. I don’t usually just CLEAN the house. I do one bigger chore a day. It never looks pristine, but it’s usually quite pleasant.
Or it used to be before Rebel Tim showed up. He’s a walking chaos machine. I can put away his toys, but by that evening all 10 balls he owns are out of the basket and strewn about the apartment like he held some kind of ball related rave while I was at work. Plus, he is slowly destroying the box spring. It has a thin layer of stuffing lining it. He pulls out the stuffing. So I have stuffing all over the damn apartment. I no longer give him stuffed toys for that reason.
Again, I wandered off topic. Sorry. Anyway, if the app had an alarm at say 9:30 am, I think it would work better for me. I like almost everything else about ToDoist. I’m considering seriously committing and buying the premium. If you want an app to last you have to support the people who make it. I can always set up alarms separately in my phone, I guess. The system is starting to feel complicated at that point. Honestly, the phone app is more cumbersome than just a paper and pen. But then you have to figure out where to put the paper to remind you…