I am single. I want to remain single.
But a good deal of what I see on the internet is what most of the world wants – marriage or how to find a marriageable human.
I don’t own a TV. I don’t want one. I do occasionally watch a show on Netflix or something.
But a good deal of what I see on the internet is about some TV show.
I am a blob. I rarely move except to get to work and to get home from work. This is depression.
But a good deal of what I see on the internet is about people traveling or exercising or going to bar/party/restaurant.
Most days I don’t even notice this. But today I am acutely aware that I am not the norm. That I don’t fit any of the standards. I on the outside.
I’m not sure why it normally doesn’t bother me, but today it feels like I’m standing awkwardly at a party I accidentally crashed.